EK KASHMAKASH

Thahra hua yeh waqt suna raha kuch khamosh si aahatein,

Guzare hue kuch lamho ki daastaan shayad kar rahi bayaaan yeh baatein

Uljhe hue inn jazbato ka sailab, de raha hai dastak iss rooh par, 

Ho rahi yeh aajmayish meri udane ki, iss khule aasman par

Kshan dar kshan gunj rahi uss anjaan awaaz ko hoon dhund raha,

Armaano ke bhavar mai mere wajood ka saya, beparwaah ghum raha

Sapno ke naqab ko oodhe, bana hua mujrim har bite hue kal ka,

Dil ki gehraaiyo mai machal rahe tufano mai, jeevan kashti liye chal raha

Ek kashmakash ke aagosh mai khoya hua anjaan sa hoon aaj,

Kuch anjaan lamho ki talaash mai ghar se bahar nikala hoon aaj..............

THE SKY THAT REFUSES THE RAINBOW

He was in her life, the best thing she thought,

All through the tears, a smile who brought,

Years passed on, days went by,

Uplifting her soul when she used to cry,

Naively through life she used to strive,

He- the only one who made her feel alive.

She asked him to be there, he did.

The only one she could see from begin to mid,

Addicted she was to him, a profound drug,

‘She is a friend’, shoulders he shrug,

With each other from night to dawn,

Affectionate he was like a pawn,

Every need of her, he cognized like an ace,

Hardship whenever mounted, he gathered her solace.

‘Friendship it is, I can no longer take,

It is good for you, if all the other hopes you break.”

Somber ardor in herself, she felt a dreaded sound,

Coz never a better hand to hold she had found,

Vulnerable she was to the outlines,

Tears attained in those pacific eyes.

Subtly she endured it for years,

Pledging he will never know what she bears,

Moving with vigour, was the only way without a harm,

Moronic she turned, shedding all her charm,

Dusk and twilight powered her days,

Uncountable words to the shadows she says,

Light and sunshine waited for her, in a row,

Yet she became the sky that refuses the rainbow.

ANTARMAN

ANTARMAN

Dil kyo khamosh hai rehta dard ke ehsaas mein

Har pal tujhe dhoondti hai dhadkane, bas issi ek aas mein..

Khwaab woh adhure hai saare jab bhi chaha tum saath ho

Aahat jo sunayi deti hai har pal, kehti hai ki tum pass ho..

Har safar iss zindagi ka, chalo tum meri parchaii sa

Haath na thama jab tumne, har kadam bada meri tanhaai sa..

Raat ka ghana yeh andhera, de raha sukoon kyo

Rago mai bad raha hai, anjana sa ye junoon kyo..

Tanhaiyaan hai iss kadar ki, saansein bhi hai tham rahi

Roshni ki ek kiran dikhte hi, kho gaya hai yeh gam kahi..

Aaj ho rahi har yaad meri, kyo zehen se mere rubaroo

Par yaadein toh aati jaati si hai, har lamhe ki hai yeh justajoo..

Yeh akelapan mera khamoshi bhara, najane kis anjaam ko hai dhoond raha

Aaj yeh mann mera bawara sa, khule aasmaan mai hai udd raha..

Dil hai hairan sa pareshan sa zara, najane kiski talash mein

Armaan umadte rahenge sada, jaise sitare bhikre hai aakash mein..

KYA KAHE TUMHE

KYA KAHE TUMHE

Jab jab tumko dekhte hai bas yahi sochne lagte hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab khayalo ka sagar zehen mai umadne lagta hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab kandhe par yeh zulfein tumhari baadlo si lagti hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab yeh aankhen tumhari maey k pyaale lagte hai

Kya kahe tumhe..

Shabd nahi hai aaj sabdkosh mai mere

Kya kahe tumhe..jab chehra tumhara jheel mai khile kamal sa lagta hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab saath tumhara kisi ek shayar ke kwaab sa lagta hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab dekhne par tu  koi zindagi par likhi gazal lagti hai

Kya kahe tumhe..

Shabd nahi hai aaj sabdkosh mai mere

Kya kahe tumhe..jab hoothon par hassi tumhari tabbasum ki chamak lagti hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab aawaz tumhari sharaab si nashili lagne lagti hai

Kya kahe tumhe..jab tumare saath hone par har taraf mastiyaan har taraf dilkashi lagti hai

Kya kahe tumhe..

Shabd nahi hai aaj shabdkosh mai mere

Jab jab tumko dekhte hai bas yahi sochne lagte hai

Kya kahe tumhe..

WOH LAMHE

WOH LAMHE

Dil ke us kone mein jhakoon toh,

Ab bhi wo yaadein rehti hai,

Waqt ke pehlu pe tehloon toh,

Lamhon ko beete lamhe rok lete hai.

Ek aawaz jo kabhi na sunai di,

Ab raat bhar satati hai,

Tanha aakash ko dekhun toh,

Lamhon ko beete lamhe rok lete hai.

Arse pehle jahan se aage badi,

Wo mod aaj bhi tok dete hai,

Yaad ki kitaab kholun toh,

Lamhon ko beete lamhe rok lete hai.

Hasne ki koshish karte karte,

Wo dard laut aata hai,

Udaas baith ke jab sochun toh,

Lamhon ko beete lamhe rok lete hai.

Khushiyan milti thi jab,

Kisi se ruthne ka gham na tha,

Ab khud se bhi kabhi ruthun toh,

Lamhon ko beete lamhe rok lete hai…

MASOOM SE SAPNE

MASOOM SE SAPNE

Aaj subah ugate hue suraj ko dekha...

Ek ajeeb sa ehsaas tha,,,

sard mausam main parindo ka aashiyana dekha

Kitni hi baatein thi uss subah main .

jaane kya keh gayi apne hi andaaz main

Ek sangeet tha... khamoshi ki neend ko todta hua

Purani kuch khass yadon ko aanchal se Dhaka hua...

Kuch khass sapne jinko pankh diye the kabhi ..

Woh ab iss khule aasaman main udene lage hai

Safed inn badlo ki chhav main....ya sard chandni raaton main

Naram si iss hawa k saath chalne lage hai

Aaj ugate hue suraj ko jab dekha

Ek ajeeb sa ehsaas tha...laga ki

Iss sunehri dhoop k dhago se ek nayi zindagi bunte hue

Har ek bikhre hue sapne ko main simatne laga hoon

Ha ab lagta hai...lambi si iss rah par

Nanhe se kuch kadam mere...inn masoom se sapno ki talash main chal pade hai.

SPENT

SPENT

I have spent  too many years,

Staring into the mirror on the wall,

Which only magnifies the imperfection,

Back to my smiling face,

I have spent too many days,

Trying to be the pillar of optimism,

That keeps up the façade,

Even when everything’s not okay,

I have spent too many nights,

Covering up my tears and pain,

With an insecurity blanket made,

Of laughter and lies,

I have spent too many hours,

Watching those carefree people,

Who reflect the perfection of human beauty,

Which I will never have,

I have spent too much time,

Stepping up onto a scale,

Only to measure my inability,

To succeed at my smallest goal,

 

I have spent almost nineteen years,

Living in the world,

And just now I am beginning to wonder,

If I have ever lived at all.